Mild Thoughts

And just like that you start to dissolve

Little bits and puzzle pieces begin to fall

Face down on the floor

Unrecognizable

I reach out to know for sure

But all the kings horses and all the kings men

Start to question

Why put you back together again

When you left me so broken

I spent a year rebuilding me

And now I can finally see

Without rose hued vision

That there never was a we

So I’ll just let you be

But then

Curiosity

I pick a fragment from the floor

And it looks like nothing I’ve seen before

A new hair

A new tone

The curve of a smile now shown

Like something familiar

Almost from a dream

Or another I’ve seen

As I try to hold the thought

It dances out of grasp

Blond hair and a laugh

I try to catch

But it’s smoke in my fingers

Only her form lingers

From tongue tip to memory

I slowly paint the scene

Someone new

Not you

But so similar it seems

A girl out of reach

As I tend to covet

A new pain

I just can’t quit

As I place the last piece

I build the new you

To hang on my wall

To chase and to fall

To possess is my call

I have not changed

I just want to crawl

Into my bed

And cry in a ball

Living life this way

Is no life at all

Maybe it is I who should have dissolved